What's up? Not maturity levels!

To my friends,
I thought my senior year was supposed to be the best year of my life. I thought it was supposed to be the year where everyone grew up and started to realize that rumors and drama were way back in fifth grade. I thought it was supposed to be the year I became free...
But no, it's not. Instead I'm stuck with piles and piles of drama and rumors that I have to sift through. I have to go one by one through my friends and peek under their masks to determine who's fake, who hates me, who has my best interests in mind....
That last one is at an astonishingly low rate.
I don't feel like I'm the one living my life anymore. I feel like I'm standing back and watching as everyone molds my soul like playdough to conform to their wants and needs.
I'm so tired of appeasing other people, so tired of being walked on, and I'm tired of snapping and lashing out and hurting those I care about. I've had more mental breakdowns in the past two weeks than I ever had when I still thought I was "emo."
So here's my final stand, and after this I just don't have the strength to keep fighting against the demands you keep throwing at me.
My boyfriend cheated on me. It wasn't a "mistake" or a "slip up." He cheated on me, and it doesn't matter how many excuses he throws out there, or reasons he tries to use to explain it away. We both know what the reality is and there's no sugar coating it.
I forgave him. Believe it or not that IS possible. And it's also possible for me to forgive the girl he cheated with. And I did. I don't need anyone to "take care of them" for me, or protect me. I'm a sensitive, overly trusting, and easily hurt individual, yes, but I've been hurt all my life very deeply by people I thought cared about me. I know how to deal with it. I'm a big girl.
No one needs to hate Michael or the "other girl." I don't need your righteous anger, or your agression. It hurts me more than what he did. And yes, I do mean that. I've cried my tears, I've burned my bridges, I've broken off my relationship. There's no more that needs to be done at that point.
We are NOT still together, nor will we ever be. I do not trust Michael, I'm not in love with him. I still care about him, he's still one of the best friends I've ever had, and he's stood by me through things that no one else would care to even hear about. There's no changing what he did TO me, but there's also no changing what he did FOR me. We're probably always going to be closer than some of you may like, but that doesn't mean that there's anything more to our relationship than our friendship.
This also means you can quit with the rumors. I'm not sure where you all saw me sitting in his lap or "making out" with him in the halls, but I wasn't there, so it was either another girl or you're all high.
Please don't make this year miserable. I broke up with Michael so I could destroy the image of us being together and live me own life in my own way. I don't know why you guys are so intent on pushing us back together in your minds, but please stop. It hurts me and it hurts him. We don't want to relive a broken memory, so please don't make us. I can't take any of this anymore. I've always tried to avoid rumors and drama, so please don't bring them to me. It's no good for anyone.
Honestly, you're all more grown up than this. I know you are because I've seen you handle things in remarkable ways because you're all remarkable people. Why are you letting yourselves sink down now? I had higher expectations.
Here's to hoping that everything will get better. I've already hit rock bottom, so the only way left to go is up.
~ Cory